There is a lot to say but I find it hard to take all the thoughts, emotions and feelings rushing through my head in a gazillion different directions roll them into a ball a throw at this writing space. The thing that perked me up was finding the last entry to be of the same month.


My writing break was exactly a day before ami arrived and today, the day she left in the morning I am writing this new post. Its a consolation. I find my fingers playing to on this keyboard with delight again. Even if the turnover maybe limited it has to be consitent.


I have a new maid, again. I think its number 8 ( a big number... 8th of the ones that lasted a few days)


One of my friends taught me a great lesson today. Of Insensitivity. And I thought I would not know what to write about today..hmmm. The mind works in mysterious ways. I already knew the ground rules.


Dont bother about what people say.


Devil may care attitude mixed with a flat expression.


Place yourself first.


And Relax, Relax, Relax..the world can go to hell!!! I would like to add to this list. And not to be afraid. what will happen will happen. All the rules above may sound unislamic and against the values of the East but the rule that I am adding seems to be logical. Kismet. I consider insensitivity...just a part of it and not the whole a part of it. Maybe its a thought that has fixed itself in my head for just this time and my opinion will change. But for now it seems apt. Being insensitive to what is happening around you, your world maybe falling apart...but you just pick up and go because that is what is expected of you. Nobody will give you a hand.


My innocence might be lost forever.